Note: This post contains mentions of suicidal ideation.
It's normal to have a secret or two, but sometimes, we have the urge to spill the beans. So when Reddit user wizardkoer asked: "What's a deep, dark secret you've never told anyone?" over 12,000 people shared their thoughts. Here's what they said below:
1. "When I was going to school, we were really poor. My mom would regularly be in tears about bills. I used to sneak my lunch money back into my parents' possession by hiding it in laundry, jackets, cars, or her purse. They were always so happy and relieved to find extra cash they had forgotten about."
2. "My wife has a ceramic mug that she uses all day, every day to drink water. As long as I've known her, she's used the same mug. Five years ago, shortly after we moved in together, I found the same mug on eBay. That replacement mug sits in a box at my office, just in case the day comes that I accidentally break the original."
3. "I used to put croissants through the self-service as bread rolls. They weigh roughly the same so it won't set them off, and it comes in as half the price. Peppers still get weighed as onions. Come get me supermarkets."
4. "My girlfriend got extremely sick while we were sleeping next to each other. Like 'roll over off the bed and cover the floor in vomit' sick. I don’t have the stomachs for it, and I started feeling sick as well and before I could get out of the room, I vomited all over her trash can. I immediately got out of the room and finished up in the restroom and then her roommate sister comes running in. She heard me bust out of the room and came to see what was happening."
"There was vomit everywhere, an unbelievable amount for a small girl, and it was everywhere. She got my girlfriend in the shower and asked me to watch her while she got to work cleaning up our mixed awfulness. It took her a while and my girlfriend threw up a few more times from what we found out was food poisoning. Eventually, most of it was cleaned up, and I put her back in bed. I have not told a single person that it wasn’t all her vomit, and I had, in fact, covered the other half of the room.
I really hope she never finds this."
"This is my worst nightmare."
5. "I was never fully potty trained until seven. I cringe at that every day."
6. "I feel as though all my friends are to good for me and the only way to be entertaining is to act silly because my true personality can't carry a friendship."
7. "I cheated on my fifth-grade science fair project and ended up winning the entire competition. I'm now 23 and still feel like a piece of shit because of it."
8. "I planned to commit suicide last summer on my birthday. I didn't because I got pulled over and the RCMP officer was kind to me on my way to the mountains. Then I met two older couples on the hike I was going to do it on, and they invited me to hike with them, then took me out to dinner and bought me my meal and a drink because they said no one should be alone on their birthday. They unknowingly stopped me with their kindness."
"How has life been since? "
"Ups and downs. The whole thing stemmed from some declining health issues, but I just passed a huge milestone yesterday with it. I've since started seeing a therapist, and I still keep in touch with the people who saved me because I do honestly think that they were there for a reason, even if they will never know it.
Thanks for asking, friend."
9. "I'm a mom but I hate being around other moms. I'm not even sure why, but I find it annoying? I also hate talking about our kids all the time and nothing else."
10. "I pee in the shower every day."
"I think most people do this, but obviously, not me; I would never."
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11. "I really do not like 95% of dogs, and think that most dog owners are really out-of-touch with how well-behaved their pet is, how badly their house smells, and how hairy their couch is. I think it's supremely boring when people talk endlessly about them, and it's frustrating to be jumped on, licked, pawed at when I don't care to be. I don't disclose this because most dog owners are so obsessed with their dog that it's not worth mentioning."
12. "It terrifies me to think about how completely and utterly lost I would be without my wife and daughter. Almost to the point where I'm worried my actual existence is completely and totally defined by my need to be a husband and father. Maybe, in that sense, I'm also scared of the fact that I have nothing else to offer the world other than being a family man."
13. "Ate my boogers until I was like 32. Disgusting habit, but addictive like all disgusting habits. No excuses, I still can’t believe it! But now, I’m getting payback from the universe as I’m trying to get my 4-year-old son to stop eating his *barf.* (And now I can’t tell anyone that I made it onto a BuzzFeed list because they’ll ask why!)"
